Change

She fell in love head first at 18 years old. She gave him her complete heart and never thought twice about it......
Our hearts are capable of love at a much earlier time that our heads and bodies are actually capable of dealing with such an emotion as "love"
We can love at such an early age because we haven't learned to let our heads interfer, we  haven't yet engaged solid thought. We don't know reservation, we dont know question, we are still truly capable of complete trust.

Of course he broke her heart completely into.....

She moved on, she loved again, and unknowlingly started the cycle of loving and hurting. It was years before that wall was finally built and absolutely in place. But once erected it was absolutely solid and safe.
It was there behind that wall, that she finally found complete and utter acceptance. She called it happiness. And in reality she probably was at the very least content! Her focus became her life, her career, her plans. Love wasn't really in her goals anymore, it wasn't in her list of searches. Life became better, goals and plans were being reached. Life was good.

Yet, love found her again.....maybe without her consent. It just happened. It was there and it felt ok to pursue. Bliss happened and Bliss died......She found herself in pain again, in angonizing, excruziating heart ripping pain. She had been tough for so much of her life that she thought she could heal herself and life did indeed go on. She found herself giving more and more chances, more and more of herself and her love.....nothing was happening different. No matter what she gave, Love was taking. And there was no return. The only thing that was consistent in her life was pain and hurt.

One day she awoke and though she still felt the love, she realized the pain and the yearning was gone. I think she knew that day that it was gone, at the very least, she was a different person. She felt a little numb, a little detached, and distant from the thing she knew as love.

Love is strong, even pain can't kill it. The love continues......
But she accepted in her heart that the love would remain......She just had to find a way to stop the pain.
The wall had been built again and it was stronger than it had ever been before!