I've spent many years giving advice that I should've been given myself.....
I hopefully raised my children to love themselves first and not do JUST what they thought was the right thing. Did something I said make them betray themselves, or something they wanted??????
That is not what I meant, I meant don't' be like your Mom. Make a stand! And if you've done that and haven't found happiness, please don't stay there.
Happiness shouldn't have eluded you this many years! Im sorry if I gave bad advice.
Here's the advise I'd give now.
Do you wake up happy every morning, do you go to bed at night, knowing that where you are laying is where you want to be?
If not, this is time for change. I love you with every being of my soul and I loved you since the first day in my womb and ALL I ever wanted for you was happiness. Not doing what society said was right, not trying to be like your parents, I wanted you to be happy. Totally happy!
I'm sorry if I ever misguided you, whatever decision you chose to make will NEVER be judged by me! I still pray daily that you will find that love as God intended when he put you on this earth.