Im amazed at technology, I'm amazed the extent of free speech has gone to. Now before you get all uppity on me, yes I'm totally guilty here and I fully admit that. And I'd have to say that my friend "Bud Light" is partly responsible for tonights blog. That and my husband being "God knows where" and I have no one to talk to.
So, we all blog, we all read each other and sometimes the temptation to see another's life is too much to resist, especially when it's put out there for all the world to see. Jenn, my youngest, thinks this is totally repulsive and believes that it's not right for you to voice every single opinion to the world. (Yet, she's the kid at school that told everything LOL)
Personally I dont really give a crap (sorry that's my alternate personality Bud talking), if i got something to say, I'm just as likely to say it to you as I am in a blog. I honestly think the blog is a better way cause maybe you can tell yourself it really wasn't about you. And then I'm not hurting anyone's feelings. Oh, hell what am I saying, I've never been one to give a hoot about your feelings (Damn, Bud be easy on these people)
And I've discovered that all this amatuer writing going on has somewhat made me a star, a guest appearance star.. Yippee!!! No really I am appreciative, really I am. I've been cast as the lover, the fighter and the one that you wish would just go away. Sorry, but that's probably not gonna happen and you keep giving me life!!! Come on!
I have to say that you keep me smiling, I laugh even if I'm the subject. I really enjoy your writing. I mean, hell, who doesn't enjoy seeing themselves in print. And that's actually what we are all hoping for someday anyway right, to see our name in print. Personally I hope mine's on the sleeve of a best selling book but I'll take what I can get.
So really this blog isn't about all this, yes i do change my mind quiet often. This is about what inspires us, what moves us and what motivates us. I write mostly out of pain, I hate it and wish i could find another avenue but I find that pain motivates more words than anything else I've ever experienced. I'm working on other senses to move me, to make the words appear but so far pain is the most productive so I stay with it. For some, it's life events and still others it's great advice. Some even use comedy, wiseassness (yes it's a word) Maybe it's a cookbook, or a book for Dummies (someone definitely got rich there) Whatever moves you, use it. I'm not dogging you, I'm not telling you to do anything different, I believe it's what was given us. And somewhere, just the courage to put it out there makes the subject worthwhile. So no, I probably won't stop writing and if find you are the subject that given day then be honored that I thought enough about you to say a few words. And those of you that mention me, in a good way or a bad way, at least you've given me validation and sometimes that's really all we are looking for.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
So I now want a new puppy
Yep....I've decided it's time for another dog. I want a Yorkie or Maltese. Maybe I'm really experiencing "empty nest" in the most rare form. I dont know, but I need someone to take care of and though my kids sometimes still need Mama. I need that unconditional acceptance.
I've researched this, actually there's not many ideas I come up with that I dont intensely research. I've looked at breeders from all over the country. Some of very very proud of their offspring. I understand it's a way of living but dont out price yourself is my motto. Your dog may have the cutest bow I've ever seen but i doubt it's worth a 1000 more than the just regular bow.
I've done this before....the last animals I had, I kindly gave up for my career and lack of ever being home"Oh no, not again" LOL I've yearned for an animal and researched and past experience has taught me that my oldest daughter has this down to an art, so I enlisted her help. Man, I was not prepared for her war against thoughtless, heartless dog breeders. But I know her, we used to have to keep her from watching the news in case there were sad stories. So after her ranting for several minutes about how people just populate the dog population without ever giving a crap about the actual animal, (I actually had an ex that had animals only to help him deal in his business and they were caged and used at need) so, I realized that she had a very valid point. So a shelter is where we headed. I found many...all over. I've applied, yes they do require an application, they want to know what kind of condition your pet will be living in. Hey, you think DHS outta pick up on this? No luck so far but soon I'll have that little lap dog that will have a need for a momma, and I'm just the one to be there.
I've researched this, actually there's not many ideas I come up with that I dont intensely research. I've looked at breeders from all over the country. Some of very very proud of their offspring. I understand it's a way of living but dont out price yourself is my motto. Your dog may have the cutest bow I've ever seen but i doubt it's worth a 1000 more than the just regular bow.
I've done this before....the last animals I had, I kindly gave up for my career and lack of ever being home"Oh no, not again" LOL I've yearned for an animal and researched and past experience has taught me that my oldest daughter has this down to an art, so I enlisted her help. Man, I was not prepared for her war against thoughtless, heartless dog breeders. But I know her, we used to have to keep her from watching the news in case there were sad stories. So after her ranting for several minutes about how people just populate the dog population without ever giving a crap about the actual animal, (I actually had an ex that had animals only to help him deal in his business and they were caged and used at need) so, I realized that she had a very valid point. So a shelter is where we headed. I found many...all over. I've applied, yes they do require an application, they want to know what kind of condition your pet will be living in. Hey, you think DHS outta pick up on this? No luck so far but soon I'll have that little lap dog that will have a need for a momma, and I'm just the one to be there.
I flew back from ND last Thursday, my husband flew to NC. If you keep up with these blogs, you know that we had recently been told that we could come to work from home. So this being the last airflight that would be reimbursed by the company, we decided to each go to our seperate homes. It was my birthday and Rose and I had some "big girl" things planned LOL...In reality we just gambled, drank some beer and talked shit on people. That's just how we roll dog. So the initial plan was that we would both fly back out to ND on Tuesday and get our truck with our belongings and head back to Okie land. Due to circumstances beyond my control, like the very dramatic way Oklahoma predicts storms, I couldn't fly out. So my husband arrives in ND about 10:30 pm, planning to drive pretty much straight through I expected to see him today around 5pm....After all, he's been gone for 5 days and since the day we got married we've mostly sat within feet of each other and I was kinda missing him and his smart ass. Well, around 5 pm today guess where my husband was sitting? Hahaha...somewhere right outside of Casper, Wyoming, now if my figures are right that's quiet a bit west of where he needed to be...And he tells me the roads are shut down. REALLY? Imagine that, a storm from the North forcasted and another one in the middle of the US.....He's a road tripper, even his logo names are Road Trip. So am I shocked, not really. He still amazes me, in wonderful ways and exasperating ways, either way the thrill is still there I suppose.
I forgot to mention that on my birthday right before the big celebration I get word that our client has decided to postpone the project....So as i'm celebrating turning a whole 45 friggin years, I get to think about my life and what I should do now. Which frankly was Trav's reasonings when I asked what he was thinking. That exactly it, he was thinking "Hey I dont have a job to do right now so I might as well go see the Rocky Mountains" I fought 6 inches of pure solid ice this morning to clear off my windshield to go to the grocery store so that I could prepare a nice meal for my husband, I even bought his brand of beer and was going to make my new fabulous "Lemon Amaretto Bundt Cake" (if interested email me and I'll send the recipe, believe me it's worth some brownie points)
So I have to re-vamp my plans for today. No need to cook, I'll just have a sandwich and some of my homemade hot sauce. I decided to rearrange my bedroom. That's all cool until you think about this, I weight about 130 lbs and my bed weighs about 500, LOL....Not including a chest of drawers, dresser, two night stands and two cedar chests. But I'm determined. So I haul off the king size mattress, the two box springs, and I look at the massive headboard which I swear weighs about 100 lbs all alone, not counting the 4 ft high footboard easily clearing another 50 lbs...If you know me, you know most things won't beat me, I can't say if that's a fault or a credit. But inch by inch I moved it. As i was walking down the hall I noticed the "girls" room (that's girls because I have 6 granddaughters) and thought well hell I've been watching HGTV, I have a good idea for their bedroom, so a little more rearranging in there and I figured I was done. Then I remembered that I had new hardware to install in the kitchen. Prior trip before this we re-vamped it and I had one more little touch to do. So I did.
So now...well into the night, my husband is probably somewhere in Nebraska, probably at a rest area if I know him cause he's too stubborn to pull over and get a room. I'm sitting in the living area wondering what's next....I'll tell you what's next, its that Bud Light that has become my friend and enemy over the years. So this is really a warning....I'm off work for the time being and I expect that I'll be writing quiet a bit.
I'll be working on having a decent body (for a 45 year old) for the June Caymen Island Trip...I'm so excited I can't wait. And I'm sure hubby and I will see some places. Maybe I'll get my wood floors put down. Whatever we do, I expect to fully enjoy my time off for a bit anyway, til someone says "Hey, you gotta go back to work" LOL
I forgot to mention that on my birthday right before the big celebration I get word that our client has decided to postpone the project....So as i'm celebrating turning a whole 45 friggin years, I get to think about my life and what I should do now. Which frankly was Trav's reasonings when I asked what he was thinking. That exactly it, he was thinking "Hey I dont have a job to do right now so I might as well go see the Rocky Mountains" I fought 6 inches of pure solid ice this morning to clear off my windshield to go to the grocery store so that I could prepare a nice meal for my husband, I even bought his brand of beer and was going to make my new fabulous "Lemon Amaretto Bundt Cake" (if interested email me and I'll send the recipe, believe me it's worth some brownie points)
So I have to re-vamp my plans for today. No need to cook, I'll just have a sandwich and some of my homemade hot sauce. I decided to rearrange my bedroom. That's all cool until you think about this, I weight about 130 lbs and my bed weighs about 500, LOL....Not including a chest of drawers, dresser, two night stands and two cedar chests. But I'm determined. So I haul off the king size mattress, the two box springs, and I look at the massive headboard which I swear weighs about 100 lbs all alone, not counting the 4 ft high footboard easily clearing another 50 lbs...If you know me, you know most things won't beat me, I can't say if that's a fault or a credit. But inch by inch I moved it. As i was walking down the hall I noticed the "girls" room (that's girls because I have 6 granddaughters) and thought well hell I've been watching HGTV, I have a good idea for their bedroom, so a little more rearranging in there and I figured I was done. Then I remembered that I had new hardware to install in the kitchen. Prior trip before this we re-vamped it and I had one more little touch to do. So I did.
So now...well into the night, my husband is probably somewhere in Nebraska, probably at a rest area if I know him cause he's too stubborn to pull over and get a room. I'm sitting in the living area wondering what's next....I'll tell you what's next, its that Bud Light that has become my friend and enemy over the years. So this is really a warning....I'm off work for the time being and I expect that I'll be writing quiet a bit.
I'll be working on having a decent body (for a 45 year old) for the June Caymen Island Trip...I'm so excited I can't wait. And I'm sure hubby and I will see some places. Maybe I'll get my wood floors put down. Whatever we do, I expect to fully enjoy my time off for a bit anyway, til someone says "Hey, you gotta go back to work" LOL
Monday, January 26, 2009
In search of....
A fresh new outlook, a new direction. Opportunity has presented itself in my lap and I'm not sure where to go with it. Its like a blank canvas, a brand new book in which you have no idea of the ending.
I'd like to do a Rand-mcnally search on the internet and find that the path has clearly been laid out, but what I would find in reality is a map with lots of detours, forks and still the decision would be laid within the depths of my mind. So instead of an internet search I suppose I'm still left with an internal search of my heart and mind.
I find that I need to gather all the information before I can make a decision so I'm seeking that first, the result will come only after the prep work.
Many times in our life when at the crossroads, we tend to fall back to our comfort zone. Rarely do we just take a deep breath and try to sort the best possible course of action, instead we just re-act. And it may work, it has before, it might again. But I'm not sure that means that it's the best course of action. So I find myself taking that deep breath...really deep breath. Actually alot of them. Every fork, every detour has the element of fear, doubt and uncertainty.
So how do you know which way to go? In our ultimate search there is only one path that will be completely clear, one that has been paved clean and only one with an open door. That's the path that is intended and it's up to me to be able to see it clearly and feel the peace within.
I'd like to do a Rand-mcnally search on the internet and find that the path has clearly been laid out, but what I would find in reality is a map with lots of detours, forks and still the decision would be laid within the depths of my mind. So instead of an internet search I suppose I'm still left with an internal search of my heart and mind.
I find that I need to gather all the information before I can make a decision so I'm seeking that first, the result will come only after the prep work.
Many times in our life when at the crossroads, we tend to fall back to our comfort zone. Rarely do we just take a deep breath and try to sort the best possible course of action, instead we just re-act. And it may work, it has before, it might again. But I'm not sure that means that it's the best course of action. So I find myself taking that deep breath...really deep breath. Actually alot of them. Every fork, every detour has the element of fear, doubt and uncertainty.
So how do you know which way to go? In our ultimate search there is only one path that will be completely clear, one that has been paved clean and only one with an open door. That's the path that is intended and it's up to me to be able to see it clearly and feel the peace within.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
I'm home!!!! That's the most comforting feeling I've had in several years, actually surpasses most emotions I've experienced. LOL...You just have to have been in my shoes the last year plus to realize the real ramifications of what "I'm home" actually means.
Ok on to better stuff.....the day just couldn't get any better than it has been...The flights were on time, the ride home was eventful and informative, though Liza has now associated the airport with her Nana leaving for weeks on time and voiced this with an "Ant...Ant" It only took a few hugs, a few Liza liza liza's and a piece of gum to get her to come back over to Nana's side. Stopping by to see the Dixon girls they immediately wanted to know if they could ride a place with Nana, Marley insisted it would be right now!!! Then the travel agent got in touch with me and we are officially booked for the Caymen Island Cruise in June!!!! Yeah!!!!! All inclusive drinks??? Hell yeah I'm there! Upon returning home, I checked things out as I normally do, to make sure that someone hasn't robbed me blind, I mean I got valuables :) But Dad had left his bday gift for me, the new and improved and larger than life George Foreman Grill...I had a bonus check sitting on the bar....time for something new!!! I mean it's a bonus right....maybe new furniture, new floors etc...
Meanwhile Rose called to confirm plans for tomorrow night...she insisted since tomorrow is my birthday that lady luck will be running with us as we enter the Duncan Casino....we will only stay a while, before we head off to the Rooster or High Chapparel in Marlow, hell maybe we will do both...Rose and I haven't had a night out without the hubbys' since my bachlorette....or maybe we will fall into our wifely roles and just stay in LOL...whatever we decide it's a guaranteed good time with Rose and I....I guess you'd just have to know us to know that.
So tomorrow I'm turning 45, so what...It really is okay....Am I old, probably, am I too old, Definitely not. I can still hang with the best of them. I saw some lady on a harley today riding with her pack and was just thinking that I'm exactly the right age (sorry baby) My child rearing ages are over and though I'm a Nana, I'm still the cool Nana. My grandsons would be over the top riding behind Nana on a Harley...
I have lots of things in life left to do...things to see, experience and file in that ever loving memories category...
As Mom always said "Life just begins at 40".....
Ok on to better stuff.....the day just couldn't get any better than it has been...The flights were on time, the ride home was eventful and informative, though Liza has now associated the airport with her Nana leaving for weeks on time and voiced this with an "Ant...Ant" It only took a few hugs, a few Liza liza liza's and a piece of gum to get her to come back over to Nana's side. Stopping by to see the Dixon girls they immediately wanted to know if they could ride a place with Nana, Marley insisted it would be right now!!! Then the travel agent got in touch with me and we are officially booked for the Caymen Island Cruise in June!!!! Yeah!!!!! All inclusive drinks??? Hell yeah I'm there! Upon returning home, I checked things out as I normally do, to make sure that someone hasn't robbed me blind, I mean I got valuables :) But Dad had left his bday gift for me, the new and improved and larger than life George Foreman Grill...I had a bonus check sitting on the bar....time for something new!!! I mean it's a bonus right....maybe new furniture, new floors etc...
Meanwhile Rose called to confirm plans for tomorrow night...she insisted since tomorrow is my birthday that lady luck will be running with us as we enter the Duncan Casino....we will only stay a while, before we head off to the Rooster or High Chapparel in Marlow, hell maybe we will do both...Rose and I haven't had a night out without the hubbys' since my bachlorette....or maybe we will fall into our wifely roles and just stay in LOL...whatever we decide it's a guaranteed good time with Rose and I....I guess you'd just have to know us to know that.
So tomorrow I'm turning 45, so what...It really is okay....Am I old, probably, am I too old, Definitely not. I can still hang with the best of them. I saw some lady on a harley today riding with her pack and was just thinking that I'm exactly the right age (sorry baby) My child rearing ages are over and though I'm a Nana, I'm still the cool Nana. My grandsons would be over the top riding behind Nana on a Harley...
I have lots of things in life left to do...things to see, experience and file in that ever loving memories category...
As Mom always said "Life just begins at 40".....
Monday, January 19, 2009
Milestones
Lord in just a few short days, I'll be turning 45. I believe that's some sort of milestone. Isn't that considered "middle age" LOL
I dont feel 45, well most of the time anyway. I feel energetic, hopeful and ready to explore what's left of the world that I haven't seen. 45 certainly doesn't feel as it sounded when I was 20.
In my lifetime, I've loved, been loved...I've lost loves, family members and opportunities, but each time I gained new insight, new hopes and new dreams. Every experience I've gone through has been vital for my growth, for the place I am in the here and now. I'm a typical 45 year old, I have regrets, I have guilt, I have pain. But it all strengthened me and humbled me when needed and sorted into appropriate places.
I am in the place I planned to be, I find that I'm more successful than I had hoped for and more blessed than I deserve. I have reached and re-set goals my entire life. I've surpassed what someone said a single woman could do. And today, I'm not bitter, resentful or in a place I'm not happy with. That alone is rewarding.
I have a wonderful family that means the world to me, I have friends that are rewarding to me and I have 6 wonderful children that I love more than life itself. You can't ask for much more than that.
I didn't by any means do everything right in my life.....:) I did what I knew to do at the time and I tried to learn from each mistake.
I'm happy with my life, and though I still have a ways to go, I expect that in the very end, I'll still be able to utter those words.
I dont feel 45, well most of the time anyway. I feel energetic, hopeful and ready to explore what's left of the world that I haven't seen. 45 certainly doesn't feel as it sounded when I was 20.
In my lifetime, I've loved, been loved...I've lost loves, family members and opportunities, but each time I gained new insight, new hopes and new dreams. Every experience I've gone through has been vital for my growth, for the place I am in the here and now. I'm a typical 45 year old, I have regrets, I have guilt, I have pain. But it all strengthened me and humbled me when needed and sorted into appropriate places.
I am in the place I planned to be, I find that I'm more successful than I had hoped for and more blessed than I deserve. I have reached and re-set goals my entire life. I've surpassed what someone said a single woman could do. And today, I'm not bitter, resentful or in a place I'm not happy with. That alone is rewarding.
I have a wonderful family that means the world to me, I have friends that are rewarding to me and I have 6 wonderful children that I love more than life itself. You can't ask for much more than that.
I didn't by any means do everything right in my life.....:) I did what I knew to do at the time and I tried to learn from each mistake.
I'm happy with my life, and though I still have a ways to go, I expect that in the very end, I'll still be able to utter those words.
Wine testing #2
Our second round with wine testing we went with the fruity one in the box LOL...Yeah, I know. So much for sophistication...
It wasn't that great and I definitely had to add the "beer chaser" to it....
It's a box so we sipped on it for several nights, I kept just hoping that the next glass would be the last....I finally gave up after night #3, though Trav continued for a few more nights, the box finally made it to the dumpster yesterday about half full.
I'm not a quitter and I actually like the relaxation that drinking a glass of wine or two brings so we will keep experimenting til we find the one for us. :)
It wasn't that great and I definitely had to add the "beer chaser" to it....
It's a box so we sipped on it for several nights, I kept just hoping that the next glass would be the last....I finally gave up after night #3, though Trav continued for a few more nights, the box finally made it to the dumpster yesterday about half full.
I'm not a quitter and I actually like the relaxation that drinking a glass of wine or two brings so we will keep experimenting til we find the one for us. :)
Farewell, Dickinson, North Dakota
A phone call from the higher ups isn't always pleasant, "Hi, Tom" I'm left with just wondering if we just got walking papers. Finally the phone is handed to me, and Tom tells me that we are going home. Not fired, but actually going to work from home.
Now I knew this was the better plan three months ago, but I've learned not to argue with who signs my paycheck. With the client paying 24k a day in expenses and we can do almost all the work on a program online, it made no sense to me to keep us holed up in a motel room in ND...Ok, so at least I'm grateful someone finally got it. And I've raked in extra moolah in expenses while I was here.
So now this week we are going home. Travis and I literally live in two different places, since we've been married we haven't really merged as most couples usually do, my home and stuff remains in Duncan and his remains in Lenoir. So where do we go? Well since we've closed up the home in Lenoir for the winter, it just makes better sense to go back to Oklahoma for the time being. We will have to get the other home open and ready to do business there as well and then we can go back and forth between the two homes.
I'm extremely grateful for this news, you all know how much I've hated it here...It also is a premonition of what may be to come as far as my career in Oil and Gas. I've bugged Travis for months about "Plan B", he wasn't interested in looking that far ahead. Now it's too close to ignore. Plan B will be to re-start and re-vamp Walker, Ltd, his business he left in NC...That means I may be doing double duty for a while trying to get that going and continue with this. I'll stay with this as long as I can though, it's just what I do.
Later this week, we will pack up this motel room. When I check out, I won't be holding the room..YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be spending this birthday weekend at home with my best friend Rose and I think we are going to have a good time. Two celebrations in one!
Travis will come to Oklahoma on Wednesday, I'll have the office set up to begin work.
I'm excited and thankful that God once again answered another of my prayers.
Now I knew this was the better plan three months ago, but I've learned not to argue with who signs my paycheck. With the client paying 24k a day in expenses and we can do almost all the work on a program online, it made no sense to me to keep us holed up in a motel room in ND...Ok, so at least I'm grateful someone finally got it. And I've raked in extra moolah in expenses while I was here.
So now this week we are going home. Travis and I literally live in two different places, since we've been married we haven't really merged as most couples usually do, my home and stuff remains in Duncan and his remains in Lenoir. So where do we go? Well since we've closed up the home in Lenoir for the winter, it just makes better sense to go back to Oklahoma for the time being. We will have to get the other home open and ready to do business there as well and then we can go back and forth between the two homes.
I'm extremely grateful for this news, you all know how much I've hated it here...It also is a premonition of what may be to come as far as my career in Oil and Gas. I've bugged Travis for months about "Plan B", he wasn't interested in looking that far ahead. Now it's too close to ignore. Plan B will be to re-start and re-vamp Walker, Ltd, his business he left in NC...That means I may be doing double duty for a while trying to get that going and continue with this. I'll stay with this as long as I can though, it's just what I do.
Later this week, we will pack up this motel room. When I check out, I won't be holding the room..YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be spending this birthday weekend at home with my best friend Rose and I think we are going to have a good time. Two celebrations in one!
Travis will come to Oklahoma on Wednesday, I'll have the office set up to begin work.
I'm excited and thankful that God once again answered another of my prayers.
Monday, January 12, 2009
My aunt is a columnist for the Elk City Daily News, I copied this piece with permission. I wanted to share with you her talents and since this one in particular is personal to my husband and I, I thought it would be the best one to share. Enjoy her writing and if interested to read more, please find her at http://aboutlifecolumn.blogspot.com and ask for an invite, or catch her columns "About Life" on Wednesdays in the Elk City Daily News.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
About Life.....Love That Never Dies
“Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.” – Franklin P. Jones.
They dated in their late teens; she loved his strength, his honesty, his sense of humor. They had the same ideas, the same values, the same likes and dislikes. They wanted the same things from life. They broke up after several months over a misunderstanding and went their separate ways. Within a few years, both had married other people. Life did what life does, it twisted and turned and took them off in different directions and not long after, they lost track of each other.But each of them carried the other in their heart. A small corner reserved just for her – that special smile and the blue eyes that always sparkled so bright when he walked into the room. A corner reserved just for him, thoughts that passed like the rustling of the wind – someone walking down the street that walked like him, the way he used to laugh at her when she couldn’t remember the punch lines to her jokes. A bond they shared with each other, that was never quite the same with anyone else.Years went by and they had children, lived lives not quite full and then divorced. One day as she reminisced with her daughter-in-law about how she longed to find him again, to hear his voice, just to know he was doing well – happily married somewhere with two or three kids or however his life had turned out … And her daughter-in-law said “Why not find him on the internet?”And she did.The next day he left and drove over a thousand miles to spend the holiday with her and her family. As soon as he walked up to her she knew. She knew she had never loved another man the way she had loved this one. She knew she would never love another one the way she still loved him either. And he knew too.Late that night after everyone else had gone to bed, they sat out on her deck, the sound of crickets and night creatures singing on the soft summer breeze from the woods behind her house as they talked until the wee hours of morning about love, about life.Sometimes we pursue love with such diligence, with such determination and it seems so elusive to us. We seem to find everything but real love. We find people not right for us, love not deep enough or that doesn’t satisfy and relationships that don’t fulfill us. And then one day, there it is in all its glory, standing before us, and we find we had it all along and didn’t even know it. Someone in our present or someone from our past – and we realize that love has crept into the shadowy recesses of our hearts and taken over our thoughts without us realizing it was there. Instead of us pursuing it, it actually pursued us.Sometimes to find something, we just need to stop looking so hard for it. Sometimes we just need to get about the business of living and being who we were created to be, and it will come to us. When we stop building castles in the sky, constructing perfect lives in the imaginations of our hearts, it shows up.
They were married last July in a fairy tale wedding with all of nature as their backdrop. The last of the sun’s rays reflected softly off the lake behind them. Even the lake seemed to stand still in anticipation as at last they said I Do. The soft glow radiating from each of them said it all. They found it. Love that lasts a lifetime. Love that is there when you laugh and when you cry. A love with shared values, shared goals, a true sharing of life. Love that never dies.
“Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.” - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
About Life.....Love That Never Dies
“Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile.” – Franklin P. Jones.
They dated in their late teens; she loved his strength, his honesty, his sense of humor. They had the same ideas, the same values, the same likes and dislikes. They wanted the same things from life. They broke up after several months over a misunderstanding and went their separate ways. Within a few years, both had married other people. Life did what life does, it twisted and turned and took them off in different directions and not long after, they lost track of each other.But each of them carried the other in their heart. A small corner reserved just for her – that special smile and the blue eyes that always sparkled so bright when he walked into the room. A corner reserved just for him, thoughts that passed like the rustling of the wind – someone walking down the street that walked like him, the way he used to laugh at her when she couldn’t remember the punch lines to her jokes. A bond they shared with each other, that was never quite the same with anyone else.Years went by and they had children, lived lives not quite full and then divorced. One day as she reminisced with her daughter-in-law about how she longed to find him again, to hear his voice, just to know he was doing well – happily married somewhere with two or three kids or however his life had turned out … And her daughter-in-law said “Why not find him on the internet?”And she did.The next day he left and drove over a thousand miles to spend the holiday with her and her family. As soon as he walked up to her she knew. She knew she had never loved another man the way she had loved this one. She knew she would never love another one the way she still loved him either. And he knew too.Late that night after everyone else had gone to bed, they sat out on her deck, the sound of crickets and night creatures singing on the soft summer breeze from the woods behind her house as they talked until the wee hours of morning about love, about life.Sometimes we pursue love with such diligence, with such determination and it seems so elusive to us. We seem to find everything but real love. We find people not right for us, love not deep enough or that doesn’t satisfy and relationships that don’t fulfill us. And then one day, there it is in all its glory, standing before us, and we find we had it all along and didn’t even know it. Someone in our present or someone from our past – and we realize that love has crept into the shadowy recesses of our hearts and taken over our thoughts without us realizing it was there. Instead of us pursuing it, it actually pursued us.Sometimes to find something, we just need to stop looking so hard for it. Sometimes we just need to get about the business of living and being who we were created to be, and it will come to us. When we stop building castles in the sky, constructing perfect lives in the imaginations of our hearts, it shows up.
They were married last July in a fairy tale wedding with all of nature as their backdrop. The last of the sun’s rays reflected softly off the lake behind them. Even the lake seemed to stand still in anticipation as at last they said I Do. The soft glow radiating from each of them said it all. They found it. Love that lasts a lifetime. Love that is there when you laugh and when you cry. A love with shared values, shared goals, a true sharing of life. Love that never dies.
“Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.” - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
Long term boredom
Unless you've stayed in a motel days on end, you won't understand the title of this blog. Before beginning this job, I never minded motel stays. I looked at them as "home away from home" It's a far cry from that now, at least for me and most I know that are in this line of work.
Creativity mode needs to set in, as I dont believe I can stand much more of the endless reruns of House, Scrubs or CSI. And since we are in the North Pole, getting out much also isn't an option.
I pondered bringing my scrapbooking, quilting and crocheting projects my last trip home, but I'm much to cheap to pay the airlines the extra $15 for the first piece of checked luggage, much less the 25$ for the second. When traveling I bring my briefcase and I stuff it with a suit of clothes and my laptop and paperwork to avoid these outrageous ways of getting more money out of us on top of the overpriced air flights. So, while we've begun our new ritual of wine testing, that'll only feel so many empty hours and hopefully help with my insomnia. Writing blogs takes some of that time but I'm not always feeling the feeling and that's not something that "we" can do together. A colleague of ours occassionally visits with us in the room or we might even venture down the motel bar...Well, we've only done that once in the time we've been here so I can't even really list that.
I'm not one to endlessly chat on the phone or the internet, unless of course it's my grandbabies I'm talking to. Shopping is also out of the question because again we are living in a motel room, where would I put what I buy?
My husband and I are always scheming, not trying to get by with anything but realizing the economy is somewhat a little on the bleek side, we understand the necessity for finding our "next" gift. I've discovered the housing market in Dickinson, North Dakota is on the explosion, the average house goes for around 135K. It's like back in the 80's in Western Oklahoma, people were giving 100k for a 25k home. I'm also very aware of the boom and the end results so I realize that we have to work fast before this side of the US also plummets. So we've decided to flip houses...Now that's something to do that pleases us both. Travis being a contractor and having built his own home from the ground up, has all the knowledge of "redo'ing" that is required. I have the design sense and marketing skills to get it out there and sold! And giving us something to do AND the ability to make even more money attracts both of us.
Creativity mode needs to set in, as I dont believe I can stand much more of the endless reruns of House, Scrubs or CSI. And since we are in the North Pole, getting out much also isn't an option.
I pondered bringing my scrapbooking, quilting and crocheting projects my last trip home, but I'm much to cheap to pay the airlines the extra $15 for the first piece of checked luggage, much less the 25$ for the second. When traveling I bring my briefcase and I stuff it with a suit of clothes and my laptop and paperwork to avoid these outrageous ways of getting more money out of us on top of the overpriced air flights. So, while we've begun our new ritual of wine testing, that'll only feel so many empty hours and hopefully help with my insomnia. Writing blogs takes some of that time but I'm not always feeling the feeling and that's not something that "we" can do together. A colleague of ours occassionally visits with us in the room or we might even venture down the motel bar...Well, we've only done that once in the time we've been here so I can't even really list that.
I'm not one to endlessly chat on the phone or the internet, unless of course it's my grandbabies I'm talking to. Shopping is also out of the question because again we are living in a motel room, where would I put what I buy?
My husband and I are always scheming, not trying to get by with anything but realizing the economy is somewhat a little on the bleek side, we understand the necessity for finding our "next" gift. I've discovered the housing market in Dickinson, North Dakota is on the explosion, the average house goes for around 135K. It's like back in the 80's in Western Oklahoma, people were giving 100k for a 25k home. I'm also very aware of the boom and the end results so I realize that we have to work fast before this side of the US also plummets. So we've decided to flip houses...Now that's something to do that pleases us both. Travis being a contractor and having built his own home from the ground up, has all the knowledge of "redo'ing" that is required. I have the design sense and marketing skills to get it out there and sold! And giving us something to do AND the ability to make even more money attracts both of us.
Wine Testing....
After sharing some wine with his father while in North Carolina, my husband suggested that we should try our hands at being Wine Connoisseurs. I can't tell you if we are looking for sophisication here or what but I can tell you that's it's very unlikely we will find it in the bottom of a wine bottle. But hey, I'm adventurous to a point so we shall see.
Now I've worked the Food and Beverage Industry for many years, so I do know a little something about wine. That being a suggestion of red or white only....
So we opted to try a white first. A bottle of Chablis. I let Travis make the final decision as I wasn't leaving the comfort of my room.
After wrestling with a way to open the bottle, yes we did forget (or maybe just lacked the knowledge) the corkscrew, I poured us each a little styrofoam cup. No wine glasses for us, the motel just doesn't give them freely. The first taste was a little bitter and dry I was thinking at this point I needed a beer chaser, the second not so much....After the first cup, I found that I had acquired a taste for the stuff. Certainly took me less time than it had for my first taste of beer. I also discovered that I was extremely relaxed. Yes, now I remember the effects from my youth....
The second cup rendered a headache and a little of a tummy ache. But the third soothed both of those. Returning for my 4th cup, the bottle was empty.
We were done, we had successfully tested our first bottle of wine and left with wanting more.
I'm sure as time goes on we'll become more and more adventurous and maybe even bring more than one bottle home at a time....
Now I've worked the Food and Beverage Industry for many years, so I do know a little something about wine. That being a suggestion of red or white only....
So we opted to try a white first. A bottle of Chablis. I let Travis make the final decision as I wasn't leaving the comfort of my room.
After wrestling with a way to open the bottle, yes we did forget (or maybe just lacked the knowledge) the corkscrew, I poured us each a little styrofoam cup. No wine glasses for us, the motel just doesn't give them freely. The first taste was a little bitter and dry I was thinking at this point I needed a beer chaser, the second not so much....After the first cup, I found that I had acquired a taste for the stuff. Certainly took me less time than it had for my first taste of beer. I also discovered that I was extremely relaxed. Yes, now I remember the effects from my youth....
The second cup rendered a headache and a little of a tummy ache. But the third soothed both of those. Returning for my 4th cup, the bottle was empty.
We were done, we had successfully tested our first bottle of wine and left with wanting more.
I'm sure as time goes on we'll become more and more adventurous and maybe even bring more than one bottle home at a time....
Friday, January 2, 2009
Top 20 Countdowns
I was listening today to the CMT Top 20 Countdowns. Talking to Rose online last night probably got me in the mood, we were adamantly searching for George Strait tickets. Yeah we love him!
So I thought I would mention this years tops for me anyway....
(1) All I wanna do (This has to be number one as it was our wedding dance, which I should say my husband did very well!)
(2)Cheater, Cheater (I can't resist this song, though I definitely no longer have this problem, I believe it came years too late, I absolutely love it!)
(3)Cowgirls don't cry (Need I say more?)
(4) Troubadour (George Im sorry you really should have rated right there above everyone else, He never ceases to amaze me and always carries more meaning than any new song I hear)
(5) Already gone...(You just have to listen to it, again I love it and believe it came years too late)
(6) Dont think I can't love you (I dont have to narrate here, the song speaks for itself)
(7)Holy Water (Yeah it's one of those you dont really wanna dance to at the bar, but it still speaks volumns)
There's many more...Every song I hear is rated according to the Heel/Toe Stomping that I've known my entire life. Can it swirl me around the dance floor, can I forget the day? Some do it and some don't. I think these rate right up there. After all it is all about the dance floor some nights. I think as soon as I get back to North Dakota, I'm taking my husband dancing!
So I thought I would mention this years tops for me anyway....
(1) All I wanna do (This has to be number one as it was our wedding dance, which I should say my husband did very well!)
(2)Cheater, Cheater (I can't resist this song, though I definitely no longer have this problem, I believe it came years too late, I absolutely love it!)
(3)Cowgirls don't cry (Need I say more?)
(4) Troubadour (George Im sorry you really should have rated right there above everyone else, He never ceases to amaze me and always carries more meaning than any new song I hear)
(5) Already gone...(You just have to listen to it, again I love it and believe it came years too late)
(6) Dont think I can't love you (I dont have to narrate here, the song speaks for itself)
(7)Holy Water (Yeah it's one of those you dont really wanna dance to at the bar, but it still speaks volumns)
There's many more...Every song I hear is rated according to the Heel/Toe Stomping that I've known my entire life. Can it swirl me around the dance floor, can I forget the day? Some do it and some don't. I think these rate right up there. After all it is all about the dance floor some nights. I think as soon as I get back to North Dakota, I'm taking my husband dancing!
Once again....The New Year
Wow, it's been a crazy year for me, maybe the craziest in a long long time.....Midnight one year ago Travis and I were dancing in the livingroom when he unofficially proposed. I'm way past the need for romantic, well actually I've probably never been romantic, it's just an overrated way for men to suck up...Give me the real, tear jerking I brought you your morning coffee man anyday. I will walk to the store for you in 28 below weather (yes baby, I do appreciate the things you do for me)
Ok...moving on. The next few months, I was either buried in work, wedding plans or just family plans. Mom says I've never learned to relax and to be completely honest my husband has also uttered these words. I guess it's from having so many children, I mean who really gets to relax running a household alone? I can't even remember the last time I relaxed, truly not a care in the world, relaxed.
But somehow in the midst of all this kaos, I pulled off a wedding that went off (almost) without a hitch. It was awesome anyway. My husband surprised me with changing our plans and moved out here and joined the wonderful world of Oil and Gas.
We purchased an RV that I believed would be big enough to live in through the week, and begun our life together as Petroleum Landmen, living on the road. For a short time we learned of life in an RV, it was mostly fun. We cooked and sat outside at night and watched the deer. We were in Western Oklahoma and made it back to Duncan most weekends.
Mid October we learned that the oil and gas in Oklahoma was mostly done, at least in our departments and we made the decision to accept the position in Dickinson, North Dakota. Not knowing how severe the winters could be we opted not to take our RV and live out the winter in a motel room...LOL. That ain't been a ball of fun. North Dakota isn't exactly where we want to be, but among the employed is so we've made the best of it. It's a different world out there and the sacrifices are among those that you in OKlahoma hopefully will never have to learn.
We've just come home for the holidays, Travis opted to go to North Carolina to spend with his family and I opted for Oklahoma. That meant that we would give up Christmas and New Years together but it seemed the only logical choice, nevertheless it's what we choose. The new year has begun and we will be returning to ND in a few days..
I'm not going to make a list of resolutions this year as I normally do...
I have but one goal and that is to bring in 2010 having the best year of my life, hopefully dancing in my husbands arms.
Happy New Year to you all
Angie
Ok...moving on. The next few months, I was either buried in work, wedding plans or just family plans. Mom says I've never learned to relax and to be completely honest my husband has also uttered these words. I guess it's from having so many children, I mean who really gets to relax running a household alone? I can't even remember the last time I relaxed, truly not a care in the world, relaxed.
But somehow in the midst of all this kaos, I pulled off a wedding that went off (almost) without a hitch. It was awesome anyway. My husband surprised me with changing our plans and moved out here and joined the wonderful world of Oil and Gas.
We purchased an RV that I believed would be big enough to live in through the week, and begun our life together as Petroleum Landmen, living on the road. For a short time we learned of life in an RV, it was mostly fun. We cooked and sat outside at night and watched the deer. We were in Western Oklahoma and made it back to Duncan most weekends.
Mid October we learned that the oil and gas in Oklahoma was mostly done, at least in our departments and we made the decision to accept the position in Dickinson, North Dakota. Not knowing how severe the winters could be we opted not to take our RV and live out the winter in a motel room...LOL. That ain't been a ball of fun. North Dakota isn't exactly where we want to be, but among the employed is so we've made the best of it. It's a different world out there and the sacrifices are among those that you in OKlahoma hopefully will never have to learn.
We've just come home for the holidays, Travis opted to go to North Carolina to spend with his family and I opted for Oklahoma. That meant that we would give up Christmas and New Years together but it seemed the only logical choice, nevertheless it's what we choose. The new year has begun and we will be returning to ND in a few days..
I'm not going to make a list of resolutions this year as I normally do...
I have but one goal and that is to bring in 2010 having the best year of my life, hopefully dancing in my husbands arms.
Happy New Year to you all
Angie
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Christmas at Home....
Lord, it's been busy...Between last minute Christmas shopping and the actual unwrapping of presents I haven't had a spare moment. I did most of my shopping online and though it saved me time of actually going to the store, you have to allot for the friggin mail service, UPS or Fedex, none of whom seem to have graduated in the spelling catagory as they can't seem to get all packages to the right address. Hence why I was still shopping on the 23 and 24th.
But like always the holidays went off without a hitch. It was actually nice and probably the most peaceful holiday I've had in several years now.
I love nothing more than being with my kids and babies.
My daughters and my son in law redid my kitchen while they were here. Man that's been a long time coming, but it has motivated me to finish the rest of the house. It's not like I live in a horrible house, I really dont. It's actually pretty nice, but it needs some updating and the kitchen and livingroom I was putting off til the last. Anyway, I was very appreciative of the girls and Casey and Kyle giving of their time, skills and materials unselfishly.
All my natural born children were here and got along beautifully, I miss the other two and hopefully we will do it differently next year. I really think Christmas is the holiday that's too important not to be spending together.
Travis and I both knew this trip home would be the time we'd buy our youngest daughters new vehicles. After days of searching, Travis got Chels a Montero Sport and after the same number of days I got Jenn a Rendenzvous. They both love it and probably got more than they deserved but at least now me and Dad get some kinda piece of mind that our babies are at least somewhat independent from someone else and safe from harm. We are both broker I'm sure, but maybe those girls will someday care for us to make up for what we gave up in our financial package to see to their needs that weren't being met. LOL....Not really girls, me and Dad just want yall to be happy, you won't have to change our diapers later on.
So the holidays are over. I got to spend some time with Rose and I'm planning on spending some time with Susan tomorrow. Sometime I gotta go to Elk and see Amanda and Kyles new house (I'm so proud of yall!)) and hopefully see my Grandmother.
Monday, I'm headed back to the dreaded plains of North Dakota for a three week stint once again. But at least I'll get to see my husband again.
But like always the holidays went off without a hitch. It was actually nice and probably the most peaceful holiday I've had in several years now.
I love nothing more than being with my kids and babies.
My daughters and my son in law redid my kitchen while they were here. Man that's been a long time coming, but it has motivated me to finish the rest of the house. It's not like I live in a horrible house, I really dont. It's actually pretty nice, but it needs some updating and the kitchen and livingroom I was putting off til the last. Anyway, I was very appreciative of the girls and Casey and Kyle giving of their time, skills and materials unselfishly.
All my natural born children were here and got along beautifully, I miss the other two and hopefully we will do it differently next year. I really think Christmas is the holiday that's too important not to be spending together.
Travis and I both knew this trip home would be the time we'd buy our youngest daughters new vehicles. After days of searching, Travis got Chels a Montero Sport and after the same number of days I got Jenn a Rendenzvous. They both love it and probably got more than they deserved but at least now me and Dad get some kinda piece of mind that our babies are at least somewhat independent from someone else and safe from harm. We are both broker I'm sure, but maybe those girls will someday care for us to make up for what we gave up in our financial package to see to their needs that weren't being met. LOL....Not really girls, me and Dad just want yall to be happy, you won't have to change our diapers later on.
So the holidays are over. I got to spend some time with Rose and I'm planning on spending some time with Susan tomorrow. Sometime I gotta go to Elk and see Amanda and Kyles new house (I'm so proud of yall!)) and hopefully see my Grandmother.
Monday, I'm headed back to the dreaded plains of North Dakota for a three week stint once again. But at least I'll get to see my husband again.
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