Delusions

I should write everyday, that actually has been my goal more than once.
It's not like I don't have anything to write about, I could fill a book in a day's time.


Yet, nothing?!


Maybe because the words I write are far too sad for someone else to have to read or to follow, maybe they would make me face the life I'm living and acknowledge it. It's probably a little of both.


Maybe because I like to be positive and I can't find a positive place or notion or idea or day....to actually write about right now.


I live safely in my little pretend world, don't ever kid yourself, it's truly delusional because it has to be for me to stay in this life. I guess that's my ability to live with my day to day life. But in no means does that mean I might be delusional, no, not in a heartbeat, that is for everyone else's benefit. I 100% know reality.

And I'm facing it like a champ in my opinion. Well, ok maybe not because Champs really don't lay down and let the world happen, they are out there facing it and changing it and finding happiness.
Ok, I know this, I'm on my way. I will do that. SOON!