Family

Tonight I need to write....I have found lately that the words don't form. Or maybe they don't make sense in my head anymore, or maybe I really have nothing to say and I dont want to speak......

But I do...Tonight

"Some" of my children were here Saturday for our Thanksgiving celebration....sometimes I can't get over "how" very much I love each and every one, or how they could crush me with a single acceptance or distant. No one in my life has EVER been able to hurt or heal me as my children have.

For the last few years my life has been missing something....I dont think I realized how much was missing until the pieces come back together during this visit...I have a need to keep my family in tact, good or bad....but we are a family. This year has been the most together we've been in a long long time.

Its the time of year to be thankful...and tonight I can really say that I am, I feel that God is blessing "US" as I write and that maybe just maybe this part of the family may be starting the healing process.

Family is more than you were born in..we also have extended families and that is sometimes also an heartache and I pray that this year....All sides of this family will be healed and brought together.