In my lifetime I guess I've experienced about every kind of love there is, I can honestly tell you that "perfect love" doesn't exist. But love eternally certainly does.
Maybe that counts for more than any other kind of love, consistency has alot to say about itself.
I've loved "truly" in my heart, loved....my husband since the day I first laid eyes on him. I was a mere 18 years old and my heart took over. We dont' have the perfect relationship, I sometimes think our children wonder what exactly it is, but someday hopefully they will also experience this "lifetime" kinda love. We can fight, we can be mad, we can be at our end, but still there's the "love". Can't just walk away, well you can, I did for 23 years, but the love dont stop. If you love someone in your life, if you truly love them, it can never ever go away. Love can't be a choice, it's not an elective you chose. It's usually against your will. True love doesn't go away, it doesn't fade. It stays FOREVER.....
If you can say I used to love him/her but I dont anymore, then you never loved. PERIOD.
To love, puts that person in your heart, and no matter what they do, no matter what happens, no matter how many years has passed, that love NEVER EVER leaves, it's like a tattoo upon your heart. Love is a permanent state.
We DO NOT have the ability to fall out of love, we fall in love, and NOTHING can take that away.
Ask that woman that hasn't seen the man she loved since she was 15 years old, yet 40 years have passed, if she cried silently in the shower the night that God called him home. Ask that man that went to his grave loving her.
What we do is move on, the heart dont stop. Life goes on (There's that ole saying) But the love never stops.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
That time of year again
Yes, once again the holidays are upon us. The stress, the budgets or lack thereof, the planning, the attempting to please everyone....Wow, just writing that sentence was exhausting. :)
Yet, this year I find myself very much in spirit. This is odd for me as since the kids all left home and I dont get to see their bright gleeful faces Christmas Day, I dont take as much pleasure in Christmas as I used to.
This year I haven't fretted over the exact item, the exact amount of money to spend on each kid, not even the planning of the actual day...I only want to be with all my kids and grandkids this year. I don't care about giving or receiving gifts. I only care about sitting around a fire, with some grandkids climbed up in my lap and enjoying their precious few moments of happiness they give me.
I vision hot cocoa and fresh baked cookies and older kids playing games at the table, conversations around the sectional, laughter throughout the house. I see memories being made and new traditions started....
I only want to be with the kids for Christmas and I want all of them to be happy that today is the day that God gave us and that this family is our blessing from God, The good, the bad and the ugly. I want their hearts to swell and feel all warm and cozy within their family unit.
I want to bless a family that can't enjoy these feelings this year. I would gladly share mine, but it's hard to enjoy someone else's happiness when your life seems so bleak. I want one family that really needs me this year and I want to give them that small spark that life and people are still good and hopefully inspire the hope that they have lost. I pray that God sends that family to me so that I can help them.
Yet, this year I find myself very much in spirit. This is odd for me as since the kids all left home and I dont get to see their bright gleeful faces Christmas Day, I dont take as much pleasure in Christmas as I used to.
This year I haven't fretted over the exact item, the exact amount of money to spend on each kid, not even the planning of the actual day...I only want to be with all my kids and grandkids this year. I don't care about giving or receiving gifts. I only care about sitting around a fire, with some grandkids climbed up in my lap and enjoying their precious few moments of happiness they give me.
I vision hot cocoa and fresh baked cookies and older kids playing games at the table, conversations around the sectional, laughter throughout the house. I see memories being made and new traditions started....
I only want to be with the kids for Christmas and I want all of them to be happy that today is the day that God gave us and that this family is our blessing from God, The good, the bad and the ugly. I want their hearts to swell and feel all warm and cozy within their family unit.
I want to bless a family that can't enjoy these feelings this year. I would gladly share mine, but it's hard to enjoy someone else's happiness when your life seems so bleak. I want one family that really needs me this year and I want to give them that small spark that life and people are still good and hopefully inspire the hope that they have lost. I pray that God sends that family to me so that I can help them.
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