2010

2010...I expected to be such a change from the prior years and rightly so it's beginning to take form.
2009 was a miserable year for me in more ways than I care to mention. I was at a crossroads and paranoid to make a move, and praying earnestly, I wasn't receiving direction so I sat idly waiting, right or wrong, that's the only move I felt safe with.
Life has been a roller coaster and if I've ever complained or whimpered in my life previous to this, I can tell you straight up that I had absolutely no right. It seems that right and left I've been faced with adversity, confusion and a stubborn nature that Im not sure I had the right to carry. But as the first trimester has passed, I'm starting to see a beginning. I was going through a fire, one that I expected was coming to an end last year when in reality it was only going to end this year.
So here I am....
I still dont know the direction, but I've began to be competent again to make decisions for my own life and follow some leads. The Lord has blessed me continously in this last year even in the times of peril for me and I acknowledge that.
I've made some life decisions that I knew needed to be made...I will follow through with each and every one. I've gained strength when in reality I believed He was taking my strength. He sorted my strengths and left only the ones that would carry me. This transition was very scary to a person who has always carried her own, but ONLY submission allowed me to come through this the better person.
I could go on here and tell of the details, but there's really no reason, as long as I came through with the end results, it happened as it should. So, the new Angie is coming along and I'm sure will be the new, improved version. My faith has gotten me through. I'm no longer bull-headed about what "I" believed was the course for me but have finally relented that the Lord had other plans and I intend on following them at the risk of everything. And, that, my friends is the definition of true faith. I have no doubt that whereever, however I end up in this next year is exactly where the Lord intended me to be.