What if...Today is the LAST Day of the Rest of Your Life
I awoke before Dawn, walking out of the bathroom this exact phrase comes to me. God has spoke to me very few times but what I've learned is that when he speaks to me, it's in a no-nonsense straight to the matter manner. Now hearing those words was not the thing I needed to hear. I went back to bed and laid there praying that today wasn't the day he was going to take me. Still I took the necessary steps to pray and repent all my sins...Around 9 am, after probably scarring my husband, I realized that what he had said to me, did not mean he was taking me home today but that he was telling me I'm missing things daily and I need to learn to live my life as if it was my last day.
I began thinking about my last days and what I wanted to have accomplished that day, hopefully in the very very far future.
The things that had been important to me, as retirement, traveling, life savings and my home, suddenly were not important at least not in the way that I had originally thought.
I thought that day of the things I would miss, my granddaughter's first prom and marriage, getting to be a great grandmother someday. I would miss the family get togethers, the reunions, sitting outside with my kids. I would miss their little texts or messages. I wouldn't have time in one day to say what I wanted to say to everyone in my life. I wouldn't have time to tell everyone good bye and there would be no more life lessons from me.
Not once did I ponder the things in my house I want to redo, or how much money I have or what kind of car I drive. I only thought of what I hadn't said to the people I loved, I thought of the times that I could've spent with them and didn't. I thought of all the missed opportunities for my family. I thought of the times I wouldn't get to cheer them on or tell them I was proud of them.
And now I realize that God spoke to me that morning so that I would not leave this earth with regrets but when that day comes, the people I leave behind will definitely know what they meant to me. If you are in my life or even if you once wore, know that I do love you and I'm proud to have been part of your life.
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WOW - I LOVE this blog!!! It brought tears to my eyes! I sat one day thinking the same thing, only thinking - hey, what if a doctor just told me I had six months to live and I imagined it until I could feel it. Suddenly, none of the stuff on my To Do List mattered any more. I wanted to go to Waurika Lake and spend time with my sister, I wanted to visit my brother, my cousin Rhonda; I wanted to spend time with you, with my grandson, with my Mom. I wanted to tell my children how much I love them and all the happy memories I have of raising them. I wanted to ask forgiveness from every person I've ever offended or hurt in any way. It amazed me how different my priorities felt when I imagined my time on earth was about to be up - I can so relate to this blog, Angie! I wanted to tell each member of my family and my close friends how very much I love you and how precious each and every one of you are to me - even if you only see me once a year, you are always on my mind and in my prayers.
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